Waiting for the other shoe to drop...

I'm getting this distinct feeling that something bad is about to happen. It almost feels like I'm doomed since nothing bad really happened to me while I was in nursing school and karma is out to get me because of that. During nursing school, whenever anything bad would happen, everyone would say, "If it's going to happen, it's going to happen while you're in nursing school". I was grateful that nothing did happen to me...but now I feel like I'm going to pay for it, and I don't really know why.


I'm not really a pessimist but I just can't shake this feeling. I've got a lot going on right now and I take state boards in four days...which totally freaks me out. It makes me feel like I'm going to fail boards but that's nothing compared to what's coming after that. It almost feels like I'm going to lose someone close to me and I don't like this feeling!!! It's not fear though, I'm not afraid that something bad is going to happen, I just feel like it is. 


I wish whatever it is would get on with it. I don't want to have to deal with anything bad but really, I'd rather it just happen so that I can get on with my life...if I can, depending on what happens...


I just hate feeling this way...