Holding pattern...

I feel like I'm in a holding pattern...I graduated, passed boards and I don't have a job yet. It's like I'm just waiting and it's something that I'm not good at. Never have been. Being patient is just not my strong suit and yet, I know the right job is out there but I have to wait for it. I'm trying not to get depressed or bitter and I'm not really either, I just don't really know how I feel and that's strange. It's not good or bad, just different. Perhaps I'm learning how to be patient. (It's only taken me 34 years...lol) 


I don't like this whole waiting game though. I'm just ready to be working. I have student loans that need to be paid, bills that are piling up and it seems that all would be settled if I could just get a job and yet, I'm happy. I'm sitting here in my cold living room (cold is good, it's been in the triple digits lately) with my cat snuggled up against my back. I'm listening to my Summertime mix on Pandora and they are playing good song after good song!!! They should call this Sarah's mix! So I'm happy, I just don't want to be in this holding pattern.


I feel like whatever job I get is going to be awesome. I know that it's going to be the job that I'm supposed to have and that I will love it. I just want it now. So, I'm trying to be patient! I'm doing better at it than I usually do. I'd usually be thoroughly irritated by now but I'm not. I'm more determined than I ever have been...which is new too. I guess this whole experience has given me a new outlook on life. I'm starting to see the positives more and handling things better. I still want to be hired tomorrow though...but I'll wait, until the right thing comes along!!!