I just realized...

I was watching a video on You Tube by Kandee, the makeup artist & I realized something. There are a lot of things that I want to do that I haven't done. I'm in my early 30's...because I haven't reached my mid thirties yet, I'm about to be 33 on the 25th! Anyway, I am still young & there are things that I want to do. Basically, I have decided that this is when I start to really live my life. It's sad that it's taken me this long to realize this, I know, but at least I did.

There are a lot of things that I am grateful for, I should say that first because I don't want anyone to think that I'm ungrateful for the wonderful things in my life thus far! I have a great family!!! My mom & dad are awesome!!! They have supported me in every endeavor thus far, even when I was being a little bit crazy, like wanting to go to law school, they supported me. (There's nothing wrong with law school, it's just not for me, I'm a medical person!) My brother & sisters are awesome too. They have always been there for me & supported me as well. They have been my cheerleaders & for that, I am eternally grateful. I am grateful for my extended family which includes aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents & all the in-laws. I have an exceptional relationship with my in-laws & for that I am truly grateful! They are awesome, I could not have done better if I'd sent out applications!!! I am most grateful for the awesome man that I am married to!!! He is my world, heart & soul. He supports me completely & believes in me completely! He is amazing & I am most grateful for him!!!

With all that being said, I am not totally fulfilled in my life, perhaps by choice but I decided that I am making a list of things that I want to do, a bucket list if you will. I chose 5 things that I have always wanted to do & I am going to see if I can't accomplish those in the next years of my life. I am not putting a time limit on them as some of them are going to take some time to accomplish! I know that some of this stems from wanting to make a difference in the world, I want to leave my mark. It may not be one that everyone remembers but it will be memorable to some & perhaps it will touch someone in just the way they need!

First, I want to go to Italy. This stems from the movie "Only You" with Robert Downey, Jr & Marisa Tomei. Marisa's character, Hope, goes to Italy after the man that she thinks she's supposed to marry, only to find the actual man she's supposed to marry. Anyway, the scenery is unbelievable & I decided, after that movie, that I have to go there. Besides, it's a super romantic place & who doesn't love that???

Second, I want to write a book. Authors & authoresses (if that's a word) seem very intelligent to me...I want to be that person. I want to be literary, because I just do. I read a book called, The Tender Bar by J.R. Moehringer & I loved it. It was one of those books that I chose mainly because of the cover & it was cheap, I got it at Waldenbooks in Oklahoma City in the "1/2 off" bin. Anyway, it inspired me because it is simply the story of this man's life & yet it was fascinating, to me anyway. So, I decided that if this ordinary person could write a book, so can I. I have an idea for a story but I'm not telling what it is...you'll just have to find out when it's published...

Third, I want to play in a major poker tournament. I would love to play in the World Series of Poker. I don't know if I would win or not, if I did that would be really cool but I just want to play. I am decent at poker & I have pretty good luck in Vegas anyway. My family went to Vegas last December & I played in 2 tournaments. One at MGM Grand & the other at Treasure Island. I didn't win either of them but I tied for 9th or 10th place at MGM Grand & I got a royal flush in spades in that tournament. It was unbelievable!!! I wish I had the presence of mind to take a picture of that hand but I wasn't sure that was acceptable & I was too chicken to ask...LOL...yeah, that was my very first real poker tournament but I LOVED it!!!

Fourth, I want to have a bit part either in a major tv series or a movie. I would love to be on Ghost Whisperer as Delia's sister!!! I love Camryn Manheim & I think that we could pass for sisters, especially in the television world!!! This is going to be somewhat harder to accomplish because obviously, you can't just walk onto a set & demand a part but I have a friend who's trying to break into the entertainment business so perhaps she can give me some tips. Besides, I'm persistent, maybe they'll do it just to get me to leave them alone!!! LOL...I don't mean that I'll be a stalker or do anything illegal, I'll just be persistent!!!

Last but not least, I really want to sing in front of a huge audience. I don't necessarily want to be standing in the center of some huge football field with all eyes on me but I want to sing. I would love to sing The Star Spangled Banner at the Super Bowl for instance. I don't really know how exactly to accomplish that either but I will find out, and I will do it. Again, I don't really want to do it where everyone can see me but I want to be able to do it!!!

Ok, those are my 5 things...what do you, my faithful readers, think??? Seriously, what do you think? Please be nice but be honest!!! Thanks!!!