2010

Ok, 2010 is a new year. I am sitting here, still in bed, watching All About Aniston on Lifetime & Bobby's in the living room playing Call of Duty, well Modern Warfare 2. So, my goals for this year, or New Year's resolutions are: 1) to only drink 2 cokes per week & 2) to lose 30 lbs by the end of this semester, which is in May. That's it, no wait, one more, I want to make A's in all my classes this year!!! Ok, so that's 3...which shouldn't be too bad. I also want to learn to cook & become more organized & somewhat of a clean freak! I have to clean my house, it's disgusting...we're gonna get SARS or meningitis or something...ok, we won't but I feel that way. It's bad, but it could be worse, I've seen parts of Hoarders & I'm not that bad...but I have other issues, as we all do. There was a time that I just thought that I was missing woman genes, like the cooking, cleaning & having baby genes. I know that's not true, I just chose to ignore that. So this year, I'm making up my mind to change, to be that woman that I think I need to be. It's not that I am a bad woman now, I'm just not Mother Earth incarnate like my mom, my mother-in-law, Katie, Stephanie...all of those awesome women that surround me. BTW, that is a short list of a few of the awesome women in my life, there are SO many more but if I named them all, well, let's just say that no one has that much time!!! I have made some new friends, who have different opinions on certain things than I do & yet, I value & respect their opinion! They are awesome ladies!!! (They have some influence on me too, more than I would admit to most!) So, anyway, my goals are to: lose 30lbs by May, make A's in my classes & only drink 2 cokes a week! My overall goals for the year & the rest of my life is to become that woman that I want to be. I want to be that woman for me...and for Bobby. He deserves that woman. He loves me, which is awesome to me because he is an awesome guy!!! He is putting me through school, to become a nurse, an RN. It's awesome & scary all rolled into one & yet, I know it's what I'm supposed to do. I will be going on to get my master's so that I can be a nurse practitioner. I would have gone to medical school if I'd had the guts, but I didn't. In a sense, I'm too old to go now...not because I'm old but because it's around 9 years & I'm almost 33 so I would be 42 when I finish. Again, 42 isn't old, by any means but who wants a brand new 42 year old doctor? I say 9 years because I don't have a bachelor's degree yet so I would have to finish that & then apply & be accepted & then 4 years of med school & at least a 3 year residency depending on what specialty I choose. My master's will only take me about 4 more years so I'll only be 37! Yay for finishing school before 40!!! LOL...again, it's not about age but it's about being realistic at this point in my life. If I didn't have any desire to have children, medical school could be a more viable option. However, if/when I have kids, I want to raise them, not let someone else do it. I feel like if I went to medical school with a small child that I would totally miss out on the formative years & I don't want to do that. I want to be the parent! Anyway, I'm not saying that people who choose to have kids & go to medical school are doing the wrong thing, it's just the wrong thing for me. If I had started even in my late 20's, then I could have done it...but I didn't so being a nurse practitioner is a good option for me. Plus it gives me more flexibility than being an MD would. Ok, so those are my goals for this year...what do you guys think??? :D