I'm putting this out there because I have had it!!! I am tired of being punished for telling the truth. I am tired of being nice and tucking my tail between my legs and taking the slap in the face or the knife in the back because I do the right thing!!!! I HAVE FUCKING HAD IT!!! It all started with a phone call that I received from my "boss" last week, stating that she needed me to work last weekend and then this coming Saturday but that they were going out of town on Sunday and so she told the other girl that she could work Sunday and she "hopes that's ok". No, it's fucking not ok!!!! I need the money, the other girl/bitch does not. She is saving for a trip that she is taking in JUNE!!! I need the money to pay my bills...but clearly, that's not important. This all started because, "I worry that when we go out of town, B won't eat for you". The problem is, he won't eat for Jesus if he doesn't feel like eating, which she even said but she is punishing me because in the past, there have been times that he hasn't eaten very well for me and I have done the right thing and told the truth. I am really sick of this crap and the reality of it is, that's not the whole story...but I don't know what it is because she won't tell me. Which makes me even MADDER!!! Seriously, if I am doing something wrong, I need to be told and that seems like a simple concept but apparently, that is not the case. I got a text today that states, "Hi Sarah!! Just got home and talked to H. She wants to work Sunday as I had promised her earlier. I hope you can still work Sat. AND can you work the next wkend...May 7 and 8??? I looked at the calendar and know you cannot the next 2 times! H is going to see her Dad, as his cancer has taken a toll. She may be gone more. I DO appreciate your wanting to work. N" This is in response to a conversation that we had yesterday where I stated that I was HAVING TROUBLE PAYING BILLS because I wasn't getting to work but, H is clearly more important. It makes me see fucking red. The stupid bitch lies her ass off but I am the one being punished?!?!? How the hell does that work?!?!?! I just can't take it anymore!!!! I have to call N tomorrow and let her know that I need my day given back and that she never should have told H that she could work it because that's not right. Of course, I'm sure that I will be told that it "was my decision", as if I give a flying fuck. As you can see, it makes me VERY ANGRY!!! I'm really a pretty nice person but I have been pushed to my limit with this!!! The fact of the matter is that I am the most qualified person that works there, I'm damn near a nurse but, what the hell do I know? I know that I have never once lied and I know for a fact that H has. I also do not smoke around B but I have smelled smoke there before and H is a smoker. I do not bring my dogs to work, H does. I would never move the furniture in someone else's house, H has. By the way, when B doesn't eat for H, she feeds the leftovers to her dogs. I have seen the food in their bowls. B is a picky eater, which is bad since he doesn't really eat or drink that much. B also has seizures and when he runs out of coke, which he has had pretty much every day of his 59 years on this planet, it causes him to have seizures due to caffeine withdrawal. I bring this up and then suddenly, my days are gone. I have been working there for about 2 years, H hasn't been there as long as I have but she gets the preference. She works Monday - Friday but I can't just have the weekends?!?!? I'll be gone in two freakin' months bitch, back the fuck off. The other thing is, when she works too much, she gets really bitchy about it, N told me. I really want to throw that in her face.
I think the worst part of all of this is that the hubs thinks I should just let it go, as if it's not a big deal. It is a BIG DAMN DEAL!!!! My character is under attack here but that's irrelevant and I guess I should know that but I am really fucking tired of that shit. Also, I would just like him to take my side in this and he just won't...which irritates the fuck out of me. TAKE MY FUCKING SIDE!!!! I'M YOUR FUCKING WIFE!!! Oh fucking well, I should be used to it by now. The things that make me really passionately angry I can't get any support on and I don't get it. I stand by his side every time he gets pissy about something but he acts like this is no big deal when he knows damn good and well we need the money. I've been working weekends since I started, so I don't feel like I should be passed over for those measly 2 days. I guess I'll call tomorrow but if N says no, that she won't call H and fix the situation then Saturday is going to be my last day. What I really want to do is tell her to fuck off and drop her on Saturday but I won't...maybe...
Sorry that this is such a rant but I am at the end of my patience with this bullshit!!!!
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Phew, girl! Sounds stressful!
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