It's been a while...

It's been quite a while since I've blogged...school has got me super busy. It's almost the end of the semester. I have about a week break and then right into summer school. Then another short break and into the fall semester. Over the summer break, after class, I am going to Lubbock to see my 2nd nephew be born. My first niece will be born while I am in my summer class. I want to go see her, the minute she's born, but I won't get to because sometimes, things just don't work out the way that we want them to. I didn't get to see Joseph until a few hours after he was born either. Mom got to see him be born though, she said it was amazing. I'm sure that the new baby boy will be amazing as will Miss Deborah. If only I would win the powerball, then I would be able to go and see whenever I feel like it! However, in order to win the powerball, I must play and that's a challenge in and of itself...LOL...oh well!

I miss blogging when I don't get to. It's my outlet. Sometimes it's easier to say the things I want to say here than to say them out loud. Even though, this is "out loud" in a lot of ways, I'm not actually speaking the words, which is sometimes a good thing. I am grateful that, for the most part, I can control my brain/mouth filter. Sometimes I can't, and I hurt people. I don't intend to, but, it happens. Plus, I use words, spoken or otherwise, to work things out. I wonder about myself sometimes because I worry needlessly. I freak out about things that aren't really that big of a deal. I am way too hard on myself, no one else is nearly as hard on me as I am. Even Bobby tells me to lay off myself, but sometimes, I just can't. It's one of those things. It's back to the freaking out about things that don't matter. Case in point, my grades. I usually make really good grades and I am barely hanging on by a thread in my med surg class. It totally freaks me out if I allow myself to think about it. However, it dawned on me the other day that I am worrying about it too much. If I continue that course, I will make myself fail. Seriously, I will pass this class and I am going on to level 3. I am going to make it to my summer class and to graduation next May!!! I have to think positive and I have to study some more...I study but not enough but even still, I don't know that it will make me pass with flying colors. I just can't fail a test or I will be in trouble. So, I am going to think positive and get through it!

Ok, I have to head back to the hospital now. My mom-in-law had a femoral bypass today and said she would like some company tonight while everyone's bowling. Then I have to go pick up my "niece" at gymnastics. Then we're going to stay with the pop-in-law while mom-in-law's in the hospital. Anyway, I just wanted to say hello to the blogsphere and post a little blog. Have a great rest of the week folks!!!