Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday

I honestly couldn't come up with anything today when I got up and sat down to blog...so I started reading some of the PYHO posts and was amazed. There are so many amazing stories out there and today, I don't have one. I'm still sitting here debating because my PYHO posts have all been about the same thing lately...I feel very one dimensional, but, it's what's on my mind...so here I go.

I finally got some advice on how to deal with this person who is causing me so much stress. I asked someone very close to me and this is what we came up with. The next time that this person "calls me out", I will look them straight in the eye and very calmly say, "I see you're doing it again". Of course, this person will want to know what I'm talking about, and I will have to explain the "calling me out" thing but at least I will have said what I need to say. The unfortunate thing is that this will happen in front of a group of people because I'm never "called out" in private. I hate this because, while I am not afraid of confrontation, I don't like to have to do it in front of a whole bunch of people. I think that there is a time and place for confrontation but a big group of people is never the place. Alas, I don't have control over it so, inevitably, it will happen. At least I have a solution because the alternative is losing my temper and the person that I spoke to about it said that losing my temper might not be the worst thing that could happen either. I don't want that though because the other person pushes me so far that I might say things that I can't take back...that sometimes happens to me when I get pushed. Obviously, everyone has limits and tends to say things that they shouldn't when they're angry but in this case especially, that would be very bad. (FYI: I'm assuming that the person I'm talking about reads my blogs, that's why I'm not being specific.)

Maybe I'll get lucky and I won't have to do this but I know it's coming, which makes me feel a little better about it. It would be nice to have it over and done with. The part that sucks the most is that it will probably happen right in the middle of the semester when I am super stressed anyway and I may just lose it instead of being able to stay calm...I hope not but really, enough is enough.

Post-It-Note-Tuesday

An old Monday Minute but the questions were funny so I wanted to do it!

What's wrong with fake breasts?
I see nothing wrong with them seeing as I may have them one day. I do think that women might should consider their frame size before going with the double d's but that's just my opinion.

List your latest run-in with the Carnival of Idiocy.
A few days ago I was nearly run over by some dumbass teenager in his big blue Dodge pickup. I was almost run over again later that day by a lady talking on her phone...I guess my black Durango is invisible...

Name one thing you'd like to tell your ten year ago self.
FINISH SCHOOL!!! It's totally worth it and better than you think!!!!!

What's your favorite word that's not in the dictionary?
Fucktard...I love that word!!! LOL

Why do fools fall in love?
I think the more important question is why do they breed???       

1. What current style do you think will end up being a fad?

I hope all of the stuff from the 80's will be a fad just like it was then, it's all bad...LOL

 

2. What's your guilty pleasure?

chocolate...all of it...LOL

 

3. What made you decide to start a blog?

It was a place for me to "journal" without having to do any writing...LOL

4. Favorite Past time

blogging, hanging out with friends and family, watching movies with the hubs

5. Do you have a job or are you a student?

I'm both. I have two part-time jobs and I'm a full time nursing student.

6. Favourite Chocolate Bar/Candy?

Watchamacalit or Take 5

7. Money/Love?

Can't I have both??? LOL...Definitely love if I have to choose one or the other though!

8. Favourite Music & Movie Genre?

Right now for music it's r&b but I'm eclectic so that could change at any moment! LOL

Movies it just depends but I'm into action movies at the moment!

Bonus Round-8 questions for others to answer along with the questions at the top

1. What is your favorite color? 

Purple

2. If you could buy any car what would it be? 

2011 Jeep Grand Cherokee

or

the new Dodge Challenger, a purple one!!!

3. What is the one thing that a person of the opposite sex does that irritates you?

have selective hearing...LOL

4. What type of cell phone do you have?

iPhone

5. If you were a type of candy, what kind would you be?

Watchamacalit

6. What time do you wake up in the morning?

depends on what I have to do for the day

7. Romaine Lettuce or Iceberg Lettuce

Romaine...Iceberg has no taste

8. How would your family react to you dating someone of a different race?

Most of my family would be fine with it but my grandparents might not be so happy about it, I don't think. 

Monday Minute

Describe your life in one word
Amazing

Is there something you wish you had learned how to do as a child?
I wish I had learned to play guitar...seems more practical than piano to me now.

Who has been the biggest influence on your life?
My parents...I wouldn't be the person I am today without them.

What is your greatest dream/hope/aspiration?
Right now it's to graduate next may!!! ;)

and finally...

Do you believe you have reached your potential?  Why/why not?
Not yet but I'm on the road. I'm back in school doing what I was supposed to be doing all along so I'm getting there. I have 3-4 more years depending on how long it takes to get my masters!!! :) Then I will be doing what I have been led to do and things will be awesome!!!!

PYHO--a solution to my "problem"

I love talking...I tend to work a lot of things out that way. I was whining earlier about the very things that I was blogging about and then I said, "Well, I put myself in that role (of counselor) and I like it so I need to learn how to deal with it". So, problem solved...mostly. It's just that I get frustrated when I'm saying the same thing over and over and doing the same things over and over and getting no results. I guess that's the definition of insanity right? Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results...so perhaps I'm insane! ;) It's all good though, it's what I choose and I have to accept that responsibility. Which also helps with my previous PYHO post and the person in my life that I have to "confront"...I have put myself in a certain role there and I allow things to progress a certain way so I have to fix it but this person has to be a part of it too because they have allowed themselves to be put in the opposite role of mine so we have to fix it together! :)

Ok, I just wanted to say all of that! Thanks for reading and staying with me! :) Have a great rest of the week!!!

Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday

Sometimes I wonder about myself...I tend to attract people that are "needy" and I can't really figure out why I keep letting this happen. Don't misunderstand, I like to help people and I enjoy it but I get really frustrated when they "won't" let me help them. I have two friends that are specifically this way. One of them, her husband tells her that I am a bad influence and not to talk to me because I call him out on his crap. That's just how I am, I'm gonna tell you if you're full of it. Plus, I feel like we all need to have a little personal responsibility and not blame our "problems" on a disease or meds, we still have some control...so use it!!!  I take responsibility for my crap, even though I don't want to so I think that he needs to also. You know? The worst part is that this friend is an amazing person who has enough on her plate without his stuff too, she is physically handicapped but he uses that to his advantage and that irritates me beyond belief. I guess the worst part is that I'm not even sure that he really loves her and she deserves better. I could go on and on about it but I won't.

My other friend is someone that I'm just not sure I know how to help...it's almost like she's a lost soul. We were really close for about eight years and then we just stopped talking. I think that I made her mad and her boyfriend at the time was feeding her all kinds of crap about me. He was just that way, very slick and slimy and able to convince you that he was right. She has a lot going on right now and has just made a very big change in her life. She is in the process of getting divorced and has moved and started a new job, all of which are very stressful. That is compounded with the fact that she has some issues from her childhood that carry over into adulthood...I have some of these same issues so I know where she's coming from. It's a process to work through and it's not easy to do and it affects every aspect of your life. So there's all of that...and it just makes things that much harder.

I guess it frustrates me that I feel like I have to fix their problems. I don't, I have my own issues, but I can't stop myself, it comes natural to me. I have always been the "counselor" in my friendships and relationships. I guess I let it overwhelm me so I have to figure out how to keep it in check. That's where I'm having the problem, I tend to think about things and talk about things repeatedly until I come up with an acceptable solution. That's how I problem solve and there's nothing wrong with that but it can overtake other aspects of my life...see, it's just a vicious cycle. Of course, knowing that I am that way is helpful because now I know how to work on it...but retraining the brain is a big pain in the butt!!! I like the instant gratification and that doesn't happen with this sort of thing, that's just not how it works, which could be part of my frustration. So I just have to keep working on it, like all the other things I want to work on...at the end of this next year, I could be nearly perfect if I get it all under control!!! LOL!!! Yeah right and if you believe that, I have some ocean front property in Arizona that I'll sell you for cheap! ;)

So, everyone go link up with Shell and pour your heart out!!!!